So, I decided to take the OHSU job despite the fact that it does not cover expenses adequately. I can manage this fact til about the end of summer (because the kids are going to ND for awhile) and in the meantime I will continue to hunt for higher paying jobs. While the wage may not be sufficient, the benefits of the "Hill" are said to be the best in the state. Or at least PDX.
I have also downsized my apartment need from a 3 bedroom to a 2 bedroom. This saves me a bit of money every month and! gives me more housing options. I will find myself a decent/comfy hide-a-bed and an apartment with a large living room. :) It doesn't have to be considered as my "forever" option.
Kids are doing well. Noah and Hannah are comfortable with the idea that I will be gone M-F in PDX and home on the weekends. I'll drive to PDX on Sunday evenings and drive back down on Fridays after work. Natalie will travel with me and be at Mario's house while I work. This is all the plan so far...
Mario and Derek have signed the papers on their new home. It is theirs at the end of April. Yeh to them! (it makes me want to cry because they have sacrificed and worked so hard for this)
Jeff and I are...hmmm, I don't know know how to describe it because I don't think that we ever decided that we were something, but it definitely seemed to take a road of its' own and we were just going for the ride...until today. There is too much going on in the background of my life and that stuff really needs to be taken care of first. Jeff has a lot of sense and maturity; he made this call because he can see things that I couldn't and am still having difficulty looking at. I'm going to go out on a limb of thought here, but I'm going to say that I think Jeff has a lot of faith, or trust, that I will deal with what is in the background and has hope that I will emerge more healed, restored, and with a better sense of self. I have a lot of respect for his decision, a lot.
I believe that what we appreciate about one another will continue to be there and give us the right "formula for friendship", so I am not worried about Jeff disappearing. I don't think he needs to worry about me disappearing either. I have plans to work him out with some hard hikes this summer! :) (lol) And, I can't just walk away from someone who likes my kids. No, not just "yeah i like your kids" type of thing, but actually likes them. (though they are quite lovable) Plus, he babysits this absolutely adorable dog and we just recently got a connection going. Do you know how long it took before she stopped barking every time she saw me, or didn't run away if I tried to pet her? Man, I'm not giving that connection up for anything! :) (lol)
TTFN.
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