Question for you?

Over the summer a friend and I had a discussion, for lack of a better word, about a particular song. Playing over the car speakers was "Stay" by Maurice Williams and the Zodiacs (you know from Dirty Dancing) and I blurt out something like, "I think this song would be fun to do a strip-tease with."

They look at me as if I had lost my mind and declare, "THIS is NOT a song to strip-tease too."

Laughing I reply, "But oh yes, can't you imagine? Someone just having fun and doing a flirtaous dance. "

"No! If there is a list of songs to strip to, this song would NOT be on it."

"Why not? I'm not talking sexy black lingerie with black boots or anything. I'm thinking flirty fun underwear with pink and lacy frills, something that says..."I'm just having fun." I think I could make it work."

"I don't think so. Maybe at a party where people get drunk and someone starts to do a strip to this song, but than people would be laughing." (Idea: not getting turned on)

I figured at this point, after spending too long trying to change their mind on the issue, that it was pointless to argue. Besides, "Fly Away" by Lenny Kravitz came on, and they stated that THAT song could be a strip song. Yes, in the black lingerie sense.

What do YOU think? Could a person do a strip-tease to "Stay"?

P.S.
NOT a clown!

Is it, "...better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved..." ???

Well, I have not REALLY lost, but being parted even for a day, burdens my spirit with sorrow for the land I love.

Necesito dos de mi

Hola! I think that I need two of me. Somedays it feels like I can handle my "stuff" fine, and than there are other days where I feel...blah! And than it is all too much! However, it is self-inflicted so I musn't complain too much or too loudly. What am I doing you wonder? Well, I am working two part-time jobs; one is 12-14 hrs/wk and the other flexes between 16-24 hrs/wk. I also go to school three nights a week and try (notice I said 'try') to manage my house, meals, and something of a personal life. Which occurs on a rare, but still occurring, basis. If I was a hermit I'd just do homework and family all the time, but I have friends who seem to want me to spend time with them. Hunh, I guess they like me. :) But the bad thing is, I like to sleep and so I take a little nap on Tues/Thurs for about 2 hrs. Well that 2 hrs sucks up my time like a vacuum.(slurp!) Yo se (hate how this keyboard does not have spanish apostrophyes) que necesitar levantame antes de a las seis de la manana. Like that happens! Good plans, no discipline; is what I have. :(

M is being really good about my school and my busy schedule, but I have an underlying stress that someday he'll blow a fuse because the house isn't managed well, or because it is the 5th time in a week that he has to make dinner. I do not know if he will do this, but I worry that he will and than I'll feel guilty. This semester has been hard for me mentally because our finances are not the best, and I know that if I wasn't going to school I could work more hours and make it better, but I can't. Therefore, I feel responsible for a part of our dilemma. And the bills! Not the living ones, the medical ones! Anyway, it'll change. M and I have agreed that come the end of this semester I will be going back to work full-time. Wait! Wait! Family, before you get your panties-in-a-wad, I am going to apply for admission to OSU a term early. IF they accept my application, I will start my online degree in Spring vs Fall. If not, I'll see what other online classes BSC offers. The main concept is to free up my time to allow me to work a full time job, but I fear that if I quit I may find it harder to start again, thus M has agreed to see how I handle at least 3 online classes, a full-time job, and the house. Hmmm, maybe I should just do 2 online classes...

Here's my motivation: First, I have always wanted a college education and I seek the self-satisfaction that I would feel knowing that I was capable of obtaining a degree from a higher instiution, and got it. Second, now that I have kids to be responsible for, I need a college degree to provide for them. To get that good job with good benefits that pays enough to provide clothes, sport fees, school things, and household needs; requires a college degree. I can not provide for my family on what I am doing now, and with no degree, I will only be offered opprotunities that resemble my current choices. How other people do it, I do not know. However, I do not want to live a stressful life that takes me from paycheck to paycheck and does not offer me and my kids the option of: vacations, trips to climb rock, or kayak down a river, or bike down a mountain, or ski (snowboard for me!), or even camp in a pop-top. (M and I really want a pop-top!) I want to create memories of fun times playing in the outdoors, mom and dad talking to each other and laughing (we get moments where we don't say much because we are too stressed), or whatever. I am aware that in our American society that these things are considered "basic" and in other places they are considered "luxuries", but for now, we live in America.

*Sigh* this bloggin thing really is neat. I get to confess my thoughts like in a journal, and I get to share myself with my family and friends at the same time. Cool. Well, next time everyone I'll post pics of the kids. Since I know you're wondering: where are your kids?!

Sorry..

I must apologize for my tone yesterday. It sounded like I was whinning on the first part of my post yesterday. No, not so. Well, not intentionally. I have great friends in my life who care very much for me, and I am often reminded so. Whenever I find an email that is for no reason, or a call that is unexpected. You know, things like that. They often do more for me than I do for them, and still they linger by my side. Those who are in my life, are there because I want them, and love them. No matter how little I may do to encourage friendships sometimes, I try to let someone know occassionally how important they are. Notice I said, "try" !! :)

Today has gone well. I worked this morning, and that was slow. Somedays I wonder why in the blazes I am still at my job. Those who make the decisions that affect customer flow have been neglecting the art of customer service and it shows. My total lunch sales were $93 and I made only $12/tips!! I do what I can at the table, but I need customers to compliment my sales if I intend to make any money! My husband stated once to someone that I have a "distorted sense of loyalty", and somedays I think that he was right. It is just that when I develop a loyalty to a job, I tend to stay and while that is a good trait to have; it does get in the way when it affects the financial situation of the family. I feel that work is like another "marriage" and that it has its good times and its bad times, but you remain loyal and just stick it out. On top of that, I feel loyalty to my co-workers and if I left, where would they be? We are incredibly short staffed and to take away one person from the situation really leaves everyone else working more hours than they are, and most haven't had a day off in two-four weeks. I do not work many hours because of night-classes, but those nights that I work allow someone who works too much already to have a break (sometimes). If I was working soley for money, I would have left awhile ago, but I also feel a pride in my work and I just do not think that I would feel good if I left right now. Also, I have no time to be trained in a new job. Three nights a week I go to night class, three days a week (4hrs/day) I work at college, and I work 4 nights a week at the restaurant. Plus, there is the house and my family. *My husband is awesome by helping me when and where he can*

I better go because I just realized that I have a Ethics test due by tomorrow night and I'm going out tonight (don't know when I'll be home ;) ) and I work tomorrow night. PLUS, I have sociology to read, Spanish workbook to complete...whoa! And kids to interrupt me...it may take awhile. Adios mi amigos! Hasta escribo otra vez!

Why did they put a fence around the Three Sisters?






To keep out Three Fingered Jack! :)

Turning another year...

Tomorrow is my birthday, the day I blessed and cursed humanity. I am one year closer to the ever empending age of 30.
What does my birthday mean to me? To me it means...an opprotunity to receive acknowledgement of my presence in someone's life. For example, I see it as the one day in a year of 365 days, that stands out as the time to convey sentiments and thoughts about a person. Since I have moved to ND I have failed on many, many occassions to convey MY thoughts about someone on their "special" day, and so I do not hold people to taking the opprotunity of conveying their thoughts. Actually, on my birthday I recall all the birthdays that I have not acknowledged. I think about them, but do I send a note, a card, a call? No. So I expect about the same for me too.
In my family, growing up, we had a tradition. Mom would ask us what we wanted for dinner and on our "special" day she would slave over whatever it was that our hearts' had desired. We never seemed to request anything too big or fancy, but it was that it was what we wanted that made it special! Thinking about sitting around the dinner table with my dinner of choice, and listening to the banter of my dad (he often picked such an occasion to tease), and the noises of my brothers and sisters, makes tears threaten my eyes. Following dinner, the presents would come out and knowing that there was never enough money, made each gift great. (Okay I had a bad year once when I was 18-19 and treated my gift like a snob. *The Shame I felt is still raw!*) I remember once I received a bed set and I was so excited! I could make my bed up nice and complete! Even brothers and sisters gave presents, sometimes it was their own personal items that they knew the person liked. This memory brings tears to my eyes that I can not hold back. I miss my family oh so much!
So tomorrow will probably proceed like most any other day because my family is not here and my husband is not a big birthday guy. I have not been big on birthdays for him either. So it is even. We will probably go out for a dinner with another couple and than come home. Or I will go out with the other wife after dinner and have a drink or two. Maybe I should call together some other women and we should meet somewhere. Surround myself with people. Who knows, tomorrow I'll call the game plan. :)

To blog, or not to blog

My husband started this, and as I have seen others do this as well, I thought, "To what benefit would this be?". I thought I'd find out.

I have reviewed other blogs and it seems quite interesting. Allowing oneself to express themselves in a way that keeps others informed, if they are chosen, or if another is interested.

Well, as it is late in this CST zone of mine, I guess I better get myself to bed. Though I am dreading the time it will take to actually fall asleep. I am wired with thoughts of work, school, and...blogging! (The "bug" has gotten hold of me already.) However, I have a FULL day of work tomorrow so I must go, whether I fall asleep soon or not.

Til next time....