Update, but not much happening

I can not say that there is anything interesting to note on my life, or the life of my acquired family. Or my orientation family. Life has seemed to make a dramatic halt after last week, and interestingly enough, I miss it. I miss the direction and focus. ("What?!", is probably what my husband is exclaiming to himself.) What I mean is, I do not find joy in cleaning my house though I do immensely enjoy the sake of order and cleaniness, but when I discover that it looks the same the next day or that I have no space to put anything and no extra finances to make a creative solution to my storage problems, I discover that I have a sense of resignation to the task. "Who cares, it'll still be there tomorrow." However, when I have other tasks that demand attention, I see my house as a responsibilty to accomplish BEFORE I can start on the others, and then doing the house is something that creates a reward. Does that sound odd? Well, I used to go to a discount store here in town whenever I had a "tackle-the-house day" and buy a small item to add to the decor. My reward was the item; only after the house was clean from front to back. (and sometimes that included bedrooms) It gave me motivation, but one day I realized that that seemed pretty stupid. However, all the books that talk about the sincere lack of desire to clean a house addresses that the person should give themself a reward. But, I have been trying to be conscious about my personal costs, so... yes, M. I admit, I am desperately addicted to caffeine. Note: one day I figured how much I spend on espressos in a year and it is about $700/yr! I am trying, but oh god it is hard. I

On another note, the kids are excited about Christmass (yes, I am aware that I added an extra 's', isn't this holiday a celebration of Christ and since the Church made it huge I honor their mass). I think that this year will be a good year of friends and family. I like gatherings because I like the feeling of companionship and warmth, and the noise of conversation in the air. This year we are spending it at M.'s parents (as always) but this year there will also be his aunt and uncle, his cousins, and one of his cousin's wife. I think that his second cousin will also be there and his family. It should be a good time.

Adios everyone. And I will try to rise above my lack of housecleaning enthusiasm. (LoL)